Today is the 30th November 2007 . Supposedly to be working right now . As usual, i went to work but found my name not on the roster list . I felt a sense of happiness . Because that means there's enough people to work and i may get to go home . True enough, there were staffs more than enough for tonight although Tiffany took a week's annual leave . So i went to ask Eddy if he needs me anymore, if not i'll just go home and get my work done . Haha, so here i am blogging .
The italian guy who kissed me on the cheek added me on MSN today, so did his friend who ask for my phone number on his behalf . Haha . And they added me on MSN during MOB tutorial today . So i was chatting instead of listening . Haha . The italian guy's name is Fulvio and his friend is Tony, from Hong Kong . Both are good looking, but Tony is married . Haha . Good for him, his wife is a pretty and smart accountant . =) . I'm not sure about Fulvio if he's married or attached . Fulvio seldom speaks English, so our conversation was short, and sweet ? Haha . Yeah, sweet i guess . Fulvio is those businessman with high ranks, the consultant for Tony's company, he must be some executive or something to consult Tony's company. Wow huh . A handsome and smart guy . Just some man most female is looking for . But he seldom speaks English . Haha . I don't mind anyway, as long as communication is there . ^^ .
So we were chatting on MSN and he asked for my shift today, i told him 6pm to 12midnight . And he says to come and eat again . Haha . And now that i'm not working . So it's just too bad . I mean . . . we'll get to meet again if we could .
So a trip wasted to Orchard, and then i came back and went to the library to borrow some novels and get started with my CRS before it's too late . Haha . I must say that i'm still hooked on tightly on America High School novels . Haha, it's just so interesting to me . Whatever, it's a novel anyway .
Haha . Alright, i hope Fulvio comes online soon so that i could explain things to him . And i'm still waiting . =/ .
Arrivederci le persone!
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Today is the 29th November 2007 . Felt like blogging again, so here i am coming up with this post . =) .
I am beginning to think about somethings which i thought i can overcome failed me in reality . I always thought that i can do things alone . If one day i'm out to work, i can eat lunch alone, shop things alone and stuffs . Not being anti-social, but being independent when nobody is able to accompany me, i can do things alone just like normal and not feel alone . I was wrong . I think i unable to be so strong in the future . I don't know . Yesterday went to the foodcourt with mates to have lunch . While waiting for them to be back while i took care of the bags, i saw so many individuals buying food and eating all alone . I felt sorry for them . They have no one to be with and no one to talk to . Even if it's for 45 minutes, it felt like 45 hours . =( . Will i overcome this fear ? Who knows ? I might . And i might not .
After ITAB today, had fish and chips for lunch . While queueing up, Mrs Mok ( my GEMS tutor ) saw me and shouted my name . =/ . Not really shout, but raise her voice to call me . She seems like she's in a rush, walking so quickly to get her drinks . I continue my queueing and saw her back with a cup of chin chow drink . She told me she was happy and proud of me for my test results . =) . Thanks, Mrs Mok . The test was a miracle . For the day of the test, i only know there's a test at 7.55am when the invigilator open the classroom door and said to me, 'are you student of Mrs Mok ?' and i nodded my head, 'you may come in for the test now' . And i thought, oh my god, i am doomed . I took out my book and started memorising those consonants and vowels . I tried to remember all, but i think i only remembered three-quarter of it . And i got back my test results, i was so shock, i got 43/50, calculating it upon a hundred percent, i would get 86% . I am happy and i will work hard for it . Maybe if Martin, Nathan and Shirley went for the test they would have gotten full marks, but i'm happy enough . =) .
Tired, tired and so so tired .
Nights, people ! ^_^ .
I am beginning to think about somethings which i thought i can overcome failed me in reality . I always thought that i can do things alone . If one day i'm out to work, i can eat lunch alone, shop things alone and stuffs . Not being anti-social, but being independent when nobody is able to accompany me, i can do things alone just like normal and not feel alone . I was wrong . I think i unable to be so strong in the future . I don't know . Yesterday went to the foodcourt with mates to have lunch . While waiting for them to be back while i took care of the bags, i saw so many individuals buying food and eating all alone . I felt sorry for them . They have no one to be with and no one to talk to . Even if it's for 45 minutes, it felt like 45 hours . =( . Will i overcome this fear ? Who knows ? I might . And i might not .
After ITAB today, had fish and chips for lunch . While queueing up, Mrs Mok ( my GEMS tutor ) saw me and shouted my name . =/ . Not really shout, but raise her voice to call me . She seems like she's in a rush, walking so quickly to get her drinks . I continue my queueing and saw her back with a cup of chin chow drink . She told me she was happy and proud of me for my test results . =) . Thanks, Mrs Mok . The test was a miracle . For the day of the test, i only know there's a test at 7.55am when the invigilator open the classroom door and said to me, 'are you student of Mrs Mok ?' and i nodded my head, 'you may come in for the test now' . And i thought, oh my god, i am doomed . I took out my book and started memorising those consonants and vowels . I tried to remember all, but i think i only remembered three-quarter of it . And i got back my test results, i was so shock, i got 43/50, calculating it upon a hundred percent, i would get 86% . I am happy and i will work hard for it . Maybe if Martin, Nathan and Shirley went for the test they would have gotten full marks, but i'm happy enough . =) .
Tired, tired and so so tired .
Nights, people ! ^_^ .
Today is the 29th November 2007 . Suddenly i felt a sense of danger . I have no idea . You know of the times when feelings just strike you like thunder ? Something like that . However, i live my life as usual . Nothing to worry about if i did nothing wrong or if i have nothing to hide . =) .
And as usual, ITAB lesson now . I am totally lost, like lost in a maze and you have nowhere to go with frustration in you . So . . . blog ! Haha .
Went to work on Tuesday ( the day before yesterday ) and another guy asked for my cellphone number and MSN address, and he gave me a kiss on the cheek before he left, haha . This time, it's an Italian . =) . Haha . Looks . . not bad, those big eyes guy and not too big size because you know caucasians sometimes come in really huge sizes that they can be as big as three of me . Haha . And i would be like, wow, you look strong . =) . Anyway, i've served this Italian before . Hopes he come again . =)) . Haha . He's handsome alright ! =P
Back here, i've decided to buy myself a PSP for christmas . =) . Cool . All i am waiting for is my pay cheque to be here . =P .
And i've got to reformat my computer ! ! It's getting slower and slower like . . i don't know ! So slow . I can count to ten and it's still not on the site i want . Lol . Maybe because i've got Sims2 installed with expansion packs . =)) . Now i've got Sims2, Sims2 HotDate, Sims2 Vacation, Sims2 Makin Magic and Sims2 NightLife ! Wooooo ~ hey people, wanna play ? Wait till i've reformat my computer . =P . Haha .
Wentta watch the movie 'Enchanted' with the POKS yesterday . Only thing is that AdePOK and CinPOK is not there, but it was fun anyway . =) . The movie was so funny and romantic and touching in the end . So fairytale but it's not reality, because fairytale don't happen in human world, it only happen in Andalysia . =( . If only i can find the magical hole and jump down there . =) . Then i would live happily ever after even if i'm single without my Prince . No Prince ? squirrels and doves are perfectly okay . =))))))))))
Oh yes, and before the movie, we went to Times Book Store and i saw a book that titled : 100more of the world's best home . . something like that where it shows pictures of homes around the world so perfectly designed that i dream of it to be mine . They come in different themes like King's Home and Master of the Modern . It's just so wowie . I was so into it until my legs can't stand it anymore . I got to walk a bit before i'm stuck to the ground . Then i walked to the back and saw the fashion part and picked out a book with a title that is something like . . The Hair Book . They tell you how you treat your hair and how to perm and straighten in the correct way . And then on the back is photos of different hairstyles with how to twist and twirl and clay your hair up . And i saw one specific hairstyle that i think i might wanna cut to it after New Year's . =) . Here it looks like this : -
Something like this . How's that, and i know that all my time growing my hair this length would go down the trash but i don't mind, it will grow again anyway . =) .
And we went to Carrefour to buy some chips for movie . We were like going all around and went to the Kids' section and Martin went to play with the kid's car ! Haha, wasn't quick enough to capture that scene but i got his leg while he tried to hide from the camera . Haha .
Fun right ! Haha . And then they realise time is gonna be up soon and so we went to the snacks section to pick up some chips . I bet we went at least 20 rounds around the section trying to figure out what exactly to buy in ! Haha . And i am the narrator always saying : And we're round and round AGAIN ! . . each time we go another round . Haha .
And as usual, ITAB lesson now . I am totally lost, like lost in a maze and you have nowhere to go with frustration in you . So . . . blog ! Haha .
Went to work on Tuesday ( the day before yesterday ) and another guy asked for my cellphone number and MSN address, and he gave me a kiss on the cheek before he left, haha . This time, it's an Italian . =) . Haha . Looks . . not bad, those big eyes guy and not too big size because you know caucasians sometimes come in really huge sizes that they can be as big as three of me . Haha . And i would be like, wow, you look strong . =) . Anyway, i've served this Italian before . Hopes he come again . =)) . Haha . He's handsome alright ! =P
Back here, i've decided to buy myself a PSP for christmas . =) . Cool . All i am waiting for is my pay cheque to be here . =P .
And i've got to reformat my computer ! ! It's getting slower and slower like . . i don't know ! So slow . I can count to ten and it's still not on the site i want . Lol . Maybe because i've got Sims2 installed with expansion packs . =)) . Now i've got Sims2, Sims2 HotDate, Sims2 Vacation, Sims2 Makin Magic and Sims2 NightLife ! Wooooo ~ hey people, wanna play ? Wait till i've reformat my computer . =P . Haha .
Wentta watch the movie 'Enchanted' with the POKS yesterday . Only thing is that AdePOK and CinPOK is not there, but it was fun anyway . =) . The movie was so funny and romantic and touching in the end . So fairytale but it's not reality, because fairytale don't happen in human world, it only happen in Andalysia . =( . If only i can find the magical hole and jump down there . =) . Then i would live happily ever after even if i'm single without my Prince . No Prince ? squirrels and doves are perfectly okay . =))))))))))
Oh yes, and before the movie, we went to Times Book Store and i saw a book that titled : 100more of the world's best home . . something like that where it shows pictures of homes around the world so perfectly designed that i dream of it to be mine . They come in different themes like King's Home and Master of the Modern . It's just so wowie . I was so into it until my legs can't stand it anymore . I got to walk a bit before i'm stuck to the ground . Then i walked to the back and saw the fashion part and picked out a book with a title that is something like . . The Hair Book . They tell you how you treat your hair and how to perm and straighten in the correct way . And then on the back is photos of different hairstyles with how to twist and twirl and clay your hair up . And i saw one specific hairstyle that i think i might wanna cut to it after New Year's . =) . Here it looks like this : -
Something like this . How's that, and i know that all my time growing my hair this length would go down the trash but i don't mind, it will grow again anyway . =) .
And we went to Carrefour to buy some chips for movie . We were like going all around and went to the Kids' section and Martin went to play with the kid's car ! Haha, wasn't quick enough to capture that scene but i got his leg while he tried to hide from the camera . Haha .
Fun right ! Haha . And then they realise time is gonna be up soon and so we went to the snacks section to pick up some chips . I bet we went at least 20 rounds around the section trying to figure out what exactly to buy in ! Haha . And i am the narrator always saying : And we're round and round AGAIN ! . . each time we go another round . Haha .
And we also went to Action City and i found this beverage heater where you place your cup of coffee or tea on top and it heats up your drink, just like that the food heater does, that kinda thing you know . But the interesting thing is, it gets electricity not from the plug on the wall, but from computers ! Haha . It's a USB port that gives it heat ! And heat it up to 50 degrees high . Cool right ! Think i'm getting that for myself too . For the times when i stay up late in the night i can have warm coffee instead of ice coffee from the air-conditioner ! Haha .
Okay okay . That was yesterday . As for today, i've missed Econs tutorial today because i didn't do the tutorials . Not even a single bit . And there's two tutorials to be done today . I work up at 7.20a.m . Guess what time is that ? The time POKS have to meet at the train station . Haha . And i'm still in bed . Pathetic huh ? So i SMS Shirley and told her i shall miss the tutorial . Haha . So . . . back to sleep . =PPP ! Haha .
Till then . . . ciao ~
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Today is the 26th November 2007 . Guess what . I finally found time for my own things . Though i have presentation tomorrow, but whatever, i just feel like blogging . . .
Knew i haven't been posting for quite some time . So many things happen . NEGATIVE !
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I don't know what to say . I got a email notification on gems that i have an attendance of below 85% . Okay, i got it, i will attend it . Happy ?
You know, one thing good about having cliques is that you belong to somewhere, you know you're not alone, you got very close and good friends who give you memories you will never wanna forget nor live past them, you would wish for time to stop when you're having a good time with them . Know the meaning of clique ? A small group of people who spend their time together and do not welcome other people into that group . I hope that's the case always . And i do hope we stay together, minimal quarrels .
I'm not being emotional, i'm just not in the mood for happy things . Almost everything is in a mess .
MST . . I stayed up the entire night revising and in the end i did not even pass, not for one night, it's two coming to three nights wasted just like that .
I feel totally stupid . I am a freak . I am a slut . I am a dumb ass . I am a bustard . I am a whore . I am a pain in the ass . I am a trouble maker . I am nothing but someone who makes people hate . I am just so retarded .
Whatever .
I think god is playing on me to not get good grades and see people get good grades .
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It totally ticks me off . And my school interest level drops from 70% to 30% now . Whatever . . i mean . . no point having so much interest and end up failing all . It just waste my time, my youth and my life .
I'm going to Finland next May, yet to confirm, if any clique member is willing to go, i will go for sure . All i need is someone to accompany me, hopefully Nathan is able to, coz he wants to go too . As for Perth, sorry, my current financial status is just not good enough for me to go both, i go for the one which benefits me more - Finland .
I am now working more than usual for save money for Finland . And if i don't get to go, i don't care what happens, if i don't go, i will spend all my save money intended for Finland in one day on useless stuffs . I don't even mind burning it . Coz then, all my efforts will go to waste, if my efforts go to waste, my money shall go to waste too . And i will not donate or give anyone . Maybe i'll give dogs . =) . Bark like a dog on my foot and follow me to the public and i'll give you the money .
Beginning to hate school, not school mates, but the school system and what they do . It sucks .
Speaking of work . Haha . I can't believe this is happening to me . Yesterday was Sunday and i was working split shift - 10am to 4pm, 6pm to 11pm . A scottish actually asked for my cellphone number . Haha . I was like . . . are you sure of what you are doing or have you got drunk by the red wine ( he ordered a bottle of Wolf Blass Shiraz with his two friends ) ? Whatever the case is, i gave him, i didn't think that much, i should have miss one number and let him call to another phone, but i was busy, so my reaction was like : ' oh ok, take it and leave me alone, i'm busy now' . Haha . But he didn't call, so thank god . =) .
What i'm feeling right now is that, i am really tired and i really wanna turn in, but i can't yet . For the entire day, i only had two slices of toasted bread for breakfast and two small packet of chips ( french fries ) . No dinner . And Mom is on her way home with my dinner - burgers . CRS presentation tomorrow . . . gonna be interesting with debates sort of thing but i think i wouldn't be so intense . =/ .
Wednesday going to catch the movie 'Enchanted' with the cliques, it would be a nice day . =) . And i'm gonna get my ADIDAS sweater if it's within my budget . Have been aiming for it for months ! Each and everytime i go to work i would bypass it and look at it without fail . Love it and it's design . =)) .
Should i get myself a PSP ? It's so tempting, Peter and En already got one each and Er Jie's getting JunJun one too . Hmmm . . . if i earn more than 600 bucks this month, i'll get it . Just wait . Haha .
And i think i would need new clothes ! ! Everyday after school i went pass ALANO and THIS FASHION, there are for sure one or two clothes standing out . So far, i've aiming for a vest, a cardigan and a full body outfit . I wanna be a fashionista ! Hip phunk stylish and ooh la la kinda thing . Haha .
Had add on some things on the left panel . Suddenly have this urge to write it down and never to forget . Naive ? Maybe . But i would really wantit to happen . All my dreams, wannabe and wishes . Sigh . If only i could have it, i would be the one of the happiest person on Earth . Haha .
Whatever the case is, i only ask for everything to be smooth going, coz nothing gets better without it .
Will blog again soon with photos, i took lotsa photos, can't wait to show it . Next time . Ciao ~
Knew i haven't been posting for quite some time . So many things happen . NEGATIVE !
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. . . .
. . . .
I don't know what to say . I got a email notification on gems that i have an attendance of below 85% . Okay, i got it, i will attend it . Happy ?
You know, one thing good about having cliques is that you belong to somewhere, you know you're not alone, you got very close and good friends who give you memories you will never wanna forget nor live past them, you would wish for time to stop when you're having a good time with them . Know the meaning of clique ? A small group of people who spend their time together and do not welcome other people into that group . I hope that's the case always . And i do hope we stay together, minimal quarrels .
I'm not being emotional, i'm just not in the mood for happy things . Almost everything is in a mess .
MST . . I stayed up the entire night revising and in the end i did not even pass, not for one night, it's two coming to three nights wasted just like that .
I feel totally stupid . I am a freak . I am a slut . I am a dumb ass . I am a bustard . I am a whore . I am a pain in the ass . I am a trouble maker . I am nothing but someone who makes people hate . I am just so retarded .
Whatever .
I think god is playing on me to not get good grades and see people get good grades .
. . . .
. . . .
It totally ticks me off . And my school interest level drops from 70% to 30% now . Whatever . . i mean . . no point having so much interest and end up failing all . It just waste my time, my youth and my life .
I'm going to Finland next May, yet to confirm, if any clique member is willing to go, i will go for sure . All i need is someone to accompany me, hopefully Nathan is able to, coz he wants to go too . As for Perth, sorry, my current financial status is just not good enough for me to go both, i go for the one which benefits me more - Finland .
I am now working more than usual for save money for Finland . And if i don't get to go, i don't care what happens, if i don't go, i will spend all my save money intended for Finland in one day on useless stuffs . I don't even mind burning it . Coz then, all my efforts will go to waste, if my efforts go to waste, my money shall go to waste too . And i will not donate or give anyone . Maybe i'll give dogs . =) . Bark like a dog on my foot and follow me to the public and i'll give you the money .
Beginning to hate school, not school mates, but the school system and what they do . It sucks .
Speaking of work . Haha . I can't believe this is happening to me . Yesterday was Sunday and i was working split shift - 10am to 4pm, 6pm to 11pm . A scottish actually asked for my cellphone number . Haha . I was like . . . are you sure of what you are doing or have you got drunk by the red wine ( he ordered a bottle of Wolf Blass Shiraz with his two friends ) ? Whatever the case is, i gave him, i didn't think that much, i should have miss one number and let him call to another phone, but i was busy, so my reaction was like : ' oh ok, take it and leave me alone, i'm busy now' . Haha . But he didn't call, so thank god . =) .
What i'm feeling right now is that, i am really tired and i really wanna turn in, but i can't yet . For the entire day, i only had two slices of toasted bread for breakfast and two small packet of chips ( french fries ) . No dinner . And Mom is on her way home with my dinner - burgers . CRS presentation tomorrow . . . gonna be interesting with debates sort of thing but i think i wouldn't be so intense . =/ .
Wednesday going to catch the movie 'Enchanted' with the cliques, it would be a nice day . =) . And i'm gonna get my ADIDAS sweater if it's within my budget . Have been aiming for it for months ! Each and everytime i go to work i would bypass it and look at it without fail . Love it and it's design . =)) .
Should i get myself a PSP ? It's so tempting, Peter and En already got one each and Er Jie's getting JunJun one too . Hmmm . . . if i earn more than 600 bucks this month, i'll get it . Just wait . Haha .
And i think i would need new clothes ! ! Everyday after school i went pass ALANO and THIS FASHION, there are for sure one or two clothes standing out . So far, i've aiming for a vest, a cardigan and a full body outfit . I wanna be a fashionista ! Hip phunk stylish and ooh la la kinda thing . Haha .
Had add on some things on the left panel . Suddenly have this urge to write it down and never to forget . Naive ? Maybe . But i would really wantit to happen . All my dreams, wannabe and wishes . Sigh . If only i could have it, i would be the one of the happiest person on Earth . Haha .
Whatever the case is, i only ask for everything to be smooth going, coz nothing gets better without it .
Will blog again soon with photos, i took lotsa photos, can't wait to show it . Next time . Ciao ~
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Alright . Said in the previous post that i wouldn't blog till after MST . However, just treat this as some slut barking . Discontinue reading for your own good .
I seriously don't know and i don't understand a single bit why the module coordinator for itab can be so stupid and ridiculous . ITAB which in the long form means IT Application in Business . And please for the sake of my ass, the word business on the cover page of the text doesn't mean we students of business course have to take it . Look, i'm not the one complaining, and a whole lotta other students there know or rather knew already right from the start that this module is the most stupidest retarded trash fucking module that we do not even need as students of ACCOUNTANCY ! We do accounting, not some stupid IT studies meant for students who are not so academically intelligent . Right . So what if we really have to take such fucking course meant for dogs ? Do we have to study so into it ? Do we really have to know so many things when at the end of the day those are just down not to the trash, but down my toilet bowl ! Coz it just isn't good enough to be in my trash, it's all shit ! Faeces ! Meant with the toilet pipes . . .
I can swear . That if i ever have to forward this fucking module, i WILL quit school and would never recomment any single bodyor even soul to SP School of Business, instead, i would tell them it's just like any other stupid lousy school ranked at the bottom of the list . Every one know Ngee Ann and Nayang is more happening than SP . Darn it, damn it and fuck it .
I don't care . . . i told myself, and i told my Mom, if i ever have to forward, i am sure 100% plus guarantee to quit school. Sorry to my friends, but seems like the school is more to the results of the student rather than the welfare . They're just stupid, retarded, bustards, sluts, bitches, whores, nincompoot, dogs and even the lousiest people in the world . So what if they know IT so much, HUMANS ARE ALWAYS BETTER THAN THOSE WIRES NO MATTER WHAT . If they disagree ? Then go . . . . go have sex with the computers and love them with your heart . All they know and what they will tell you in return in DOGS, BUSTARDS AND SLUTS DETECTED, PREPARE FOR TERMINATION ! ! Coz they wouldn't even wanna be with you . youjustsucktotheverycore . ihateitab .
I seriously don't know and i don't understand a single bit why the module coordinator for itab can be so stupid and ridiculous . ITAB which in the long form means IT Application in Business . And please for the sake of my ass, the word business on the cover page of the text doesn't mean we students of business course have to take it . Look, i'm not the one complaining, and a whole lotta other students there know or rather knew already right from the start that this module is the most stupidest retarded trash fucking module that we do not even need as students of ACCOUNTANCY ! We do accounting, not some stupid IT studies meant for students who are not so academically intelligent . Right . So what if we really have to take such fucking course meant for dogs ? Do we have to study so into it ? Do we really have to know so many things when at the end of the day those are just down not to the trash, but down my toilet bowl ! Coz it just isn't good enough to be in my trash, it's all shit ! Faeces ! Meant with the toilet pipes . . .
I can swear . That if i ever have to forward this fucking module, i WILL quit school and would never recomment any single bodyor even soul to SP School of Business, instead, i would tell them it's just like any other stupid lousy school ranked at the bottom of the list . Every one know Ngee Ann and Nayang is more happening than SP . Darn it, damn it and fuck it .
I don't care . . . i told myself, and i told my Mom, if i ever have to forward, i am sure 100% plus guarantee to quit school. Sorry to my friends, but seems like the school is more to the results of the student rather than the welfare . They're just stupid, retarded, bustards, sluts, bitches, whores, nincompoot, dogs and even the lousiest people in the world . So what if they know IT so much, HUMANS ARE ALWAYS BETTER THAN THOSE WIRES NO MATTER WHAT . If they disagree ? Then go . . . . go have sex with the computers and love them with your heart . All they know and what they will tell you in return in DOGS, BUSTARDS AND SLUTS DETECTED, PREPARE FOR TERMINATION ! ! Coz they wouldn't even wanna be with you . youjustsucktotheverycore . ihateitab .
Friday, November 02, 2007
Hey people ! Busy busy busy till after MST ( Mid-Semester-Test ) . So i wouldn't be blogging .
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突然间，我觉得自己一直以来都在逃避。MSN blocked 了他，却没 delete，换了手机号码，甚至连手机也买新的，但还是拥有着他的号码。我似乎把我自己从他世界里拔出来，然后默默在一旁看着他，傻傻的等待他有一天能回头发现我。他也许因为我的所作所为，看不到听不到见不到我，我也希望，我能放下，把他给忘得干干净净。过了那么长的时间，我怎么还是对他依依不舍。好想知道为什么我会这样。。。在这段时间里，我告诉自己，为何要为他愁眉苦脸，开心起来，至少身边的人不会为我而担心吧。。。原来不开心的时候，脸上摆着很开心的样子是那么的辛苦。。我只想过个风平浪静的爱情生活，却有如要一颗心心那么困难。。。有时，我在想爱自己是否比较好呢。。。。
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突然间，我觉得自己一直以来都在逃避。MSN blocked 了他，却没 delete，换了手机号码，甚至连手机也买新的，但还是拥有着他的号码。我似乎把我自己从他世界里拔出来，然后默默在一旁看着他，傻傻的等待他有一天能回头发现我。他也许因为我的所作所为，看不到听不到见不到我，我也希望，我能放下，把他给忘得干干净净。过了那么长的时间，我怎么还是对他依依不舍。好想知道为什么我会这样。。。在这段时间里，我告诉自己，为何要为他愁眉苦脸，开心起来，至少身边的人不会为我而担心吧。。。原来不开心的时候，脸上摆着很开心的样子是那么的辛苦。。我只想过个风平浪静的爱情生活，却有如要一颗心心那么困难。。。有时，我在想爱自己是否比较好呢。。。。